【HP/FB 双语】GGAD通信集——三十五只猫头鹰(21)

My apologies, but I do not think I shall be writing again.

抱歉，但我想我不会再和你写信了。

第二十九只猫头鹰

July 10th, 1982

Dumbledore—

邓布利多——

You're still lying, damn you. Schwanzlutscher.

你还在撒谎，去你的。你他妈个混账。

注：

1.Schwanzlutscher：Schwanz本意为尾巴，引喻为男性sjq，lutschen是“吸”，“吮”的意思。骂的很脏，感觉如果邓教混血他就要骂泥巴种了。（不直接那样翻译一是觉得太粗鲁了，二是发现这一类词语中文里意思相近的都难免扯到女性，觉得不好）

第三十只猫头鹰

August 9th, 1989

Dumbledore—

邓不利多——

I've started too many letters and crumpled them unsent. I'm sorry. Write to me

我写了很多信又把它们揉碎了。我错了。给我写信好吗？

Lonely.

孤独的。

第三十一只猫头鹰

[sealed with a charm which opens only to a drop of Gellert Grindelwald's blood]

[一封只能用盖勒特·格林德沃的一滴血启封的信]

December 25th, 1995

Gellert,

盖勒特，

A Christmas letter, after all this time. I must confess that I have not held to your wishes. Voldemort remains undefeated, and he has recently returned in full health, after his brush with what he so feared, and begun to gather followers. Horcruxes, old friend. Horcruxes and dozens of other defenses. And, on my word, I do not lie. I do not know why I won, in the end. I do not know what you want me to say.

一封圣诞信，在过去了这么久之后。我必须承认我没能完成你的期愿。伏地魔的残余部分还尚未被打败，最近他却以鼎盛之势卷土重来。在和他最恐惧的死亡擦肩而过后，他开始召集他的追随者了。魂器，老朋友。魂器，和数十道其他的防御措施。而且，我保证，我并没有在说谎。我不知道我为什么最终在决斗之中获胜，我也不明白你这么做是想让我说些什么。

And I know—that I said I would not write again. And I ept your apology, of course, years ago. But I cannot think what else to do. I beg of you patience...

我知道——我之前说过了我不会再写信的。我接受你的道歉，自然，在很早之前就已经接受了。可我不知道我还能做些什么，我乞求你还留有耐心……

I suppose by now you must have heard of Harry Potter.

我想你一定听说过哈利·波特。

I send this to you in the deepest confidence. As I remember writing long ago, I have no true intimates. Peculiar as it is, after all the years of silence and all the anger, you are the man whom I trust most with—this. With a matter of no consequence to the war, to England, to Voldemort—

我怀着最深切的信任将这封信寄给你。就像我很久之前在信里说过的那样，我没有真正的至交。虽然这很奇怪，但在历经过这些年的沉默和所有愤怒之后，你仍旧是我最信任的、能去倾吐这件事的人——无关乎战争，无关于英国，也与伏地魔并无牵扯——

Harry Potter started at Hogwarts five years ago. He was Sorted into Gryffindor House, which I doubt surprises you. His academics are on the upper side of average, his teacher relations generally neutral, and his friendships unbreakable as diamonds. He was raised by an abusive, neglectful Muggle family, utterly miserable until he came to Hogwarts, and that was my will, for it was necessary to protect him. Necessary to condemn him to a horrible childhood. His entire life is bound up in old magic, wild philomency, things Voldemort refuses to acknowledge and which even you and I barely plumbed the existence of. He is both ordinary and extraordinary at once, and it strains my wit to describe him.

哈利·波特在五年前就读于霍格沃茨。他被分入了格兰芬多，我相信于此你并不会感到惊讶。他的成绩属于中等偏上，师生关系不温不火，友谊则坚不可摧。他在一个麻瓜家庭中被虐待、忽视着长大，十分悲惨，直到他来到霍格沃茨——而这正是我安排的，为了让他得到必要的保护，不得不判给他一个苦难的童年。他的一生与古老的魔咒紧密相连，那是来自他母亲的强烈爱意，是伏地魔拒绝去承认的东西，甚至是你和我也勉强才得以窥之一隅。他的平凡与独特同时傍身，我不得不绞尽脑汁来向你形容。

He has suffered so, so much for a boy so young. And so much of it at my hands, even if indirectly. And—he does not know. He has not even the faintest clue of the true weight of it.

于一个这样年轻的孩子而言，他遭受的苦痛已经太多太多了。而且这些多数都出自于我手，即使这并不是直接的。并且——他于此丝毫不知，他甚至对真象的沉重根本毫无察觉。

His fate is entwined with Voldemort's. Magic beyond logic or reason—

他的命运和伏地魔的紧紧纠缠。魔咒背后的力量远超乎一切逻辑与因果——

Gellert, I must send him to his death.

盖勒特，我必须把他推向死亡。

I had tried for so many years not to see it. A shred of Voldemort's soul, so torn from the creation of his Horcruxes, dislodged when the Killing Curse backfired and stuck in an innocent boy. There is a prophecy. Twin serpents in the smoke of the pathfinder. Old, old, antediluvian magic—

这么多年来，我一直努力不去想它。一块伏地魔灵魂的碎片，就像制造魂器时撕裂灵魂那样，在杀戮咒反弹之后，附着在了一个无辜的男孩身上。曾有一预言兆示——双生蛇立与寻路者迷雾重重的前行之道。原始、古老、诞生于混沌的魔法——